Last year, during Spring Break, I wrote this little song. Saturday night before Easter I started writing a poem about what (i think) it was like for Thomas: his doubts and his interactions with Christ after the resurrection. Sunday morning at Cornerstone Church (Livermore, CA), Pastor Steve was sharing about Thomas and the reality of doubt. I came home psyched and suddenly my poem had chords and evolved into this song. I might finish the poem one day and post it... I've attached the verses (John 20:19-31 NASB) and a YouTube with the song. :)
19 So when it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and when the doors were shut where the disciples were, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in their midst and said to them, "Peace be with you."
20 And when He had said this, He showed them both His hands and His side The disciples then rejoiced when they saw the Lord.
21 So Jesus said to them again, "Peace be with you; as the Father has sent Me, I also send you."
22 And when He had said this, He breathed on them and said to them, "Receive the Holy Spirit.
23 "If you forgive the sins of any, their sins have been forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they have been retained."
24 But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.
25 So the other disciples were saying to him, "We have seen the Lord!" But he said to them, "Unless I see in His hands the imprint of the nails, and put my finger into the place of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will not believe."
26 After eight days His disciples were again inside, and Thomas with them. Jesus came, the doors having been shut, and stood in their midst and said, "Peace be with you."
27 Then He said to Thomas, "Reach here with your finger, and see My hands; and reach here your hand and put it into My side; and do not be unbelieving, but believing."
28 Thomas answered and said to Him, "My Lord and my God!"
29 Jesus said to him, "Because you have seen Me, have you believed? Blessed are they who did not see, and yet believed."
30 Therefore many other signs Jesus also performed in the presence of the disciples, which are not written in this book;
31 but these have been written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing you may have life in His name.
Lyrics:
"Peace with you" He says to me;
Do my eyes play (a) fool of me?
My doubting heart says it cant be,
The One who takes my sin?
Thomas, My son, do not doubt today!
For its you, I've come to save.
In this quiet room,
Do you now believe?
That I died to set you free!
Do His hands have holes so wide?
A gash that gapes there from His side?
Do I doubt whats standing there,
Right in front of me?
Thomas, My son, do not doubt today!
For its you, I've come to save.
In this quiet room,
Do you now believe?
That I died to set you free!
My faith - it is adrift;
My fingers - they must sift,
Through the hands of Him who died.
Of Him who died, of Him who died
I watched Him die, I watched Him die.
How can it be? How can it be?
He's standing in front of me -
Thomas, My son, do not doubt today!
For its you, I've come to save.
See now and believe.
Touch! I dont deceive.
Now call the nations to My praise!
Do my eyes play (a) fool of me?
My doubting heart says it cant be,
The One who takes my sin?
Thomas, My son, do not doubt today!
For its you, I've come to save.
In this quiet room,
Do you now believe?
That I died to set you free!
Do His hands have holes so wide?
A gash that gapes there from His side?
Do I doubt whats standing there,
Right in front of me?
Thomas, My son, do not doubt today!
For its you, I've come to save.
In this quiet room,
Do you now believe?
That I died to set you free!
My faith - it is adrift;
My fingers - they must sift,
Through the hands of Him who died.
Of Him who died, of Him who died
I watched Him die, I watched Him die.
How can it be? How can it be?
He's standing in front of me -
Thomas, My son, do not doubt today!
For its you, I've come to save.
See now and believe.
Touch! I dont deceive.
Now call the nations to My praise!
